And Onto Another Specialist

Of course there is always something new popping up with our Bean.  At least we might have found out some answers to why he is constantly getting sick.  We took him to his first visit with an immunologist to see why he was getting strep all the time.  Well, the $3,500 worth of blood work came back from the eleven tubes of blood taken from our boy. 

Beckett's immunology reports  have peeked the interest of our immunologist. A couple of things that came up in his blood panel that were surprising.  Beckett seems to be on antibiotics all the time. His tests uncovered some interesting data in his blood samples. She found that his antibodies IgG and IgM are very low. His IgA was normal. She found that his numbers were low enough to watch over the next few months. A typical healthy child has anywhere from 700-800 levels, Beckett's are around the 500's when he is healthy. She said that if they go below 300 - 250 that she will recommend him having antibody infusions due to his immune system is not creating a high enough antibody count to fight off infection.  We would monitor his situation every 6 months. Also, his body did not create a high enough antibodies to tetanus. Which his other vaccines seemed to be adequate to fight off those other types of infections. She ask me if he scrapes and cuts took a long time to heal...which I never really thought about it..but it takes forever to have a wound heal fast. Anyway, I thought that this was an interesting find and I am going bring it up to the researchers to see if it could possibly be linked to SYNGAP.  She also recommended us take him to see and infectious disease doctor to rule out the possibility of him having PANDAS.  She said he exhibits all the criteria for PANDAS. That will be our next stop this fall.  We will be taking Beckett in November to have him skin pricked for all the allergies to penicillin.  That day should be fun...

I am glad it is summer time because Beckett is not sick as much during the summer.  Beckett has been progressing much faster than usual being on his Lamictal medication.   His expressive language has gotten much better and his annunciation of words has improved tremendously.  His cognitive abilities and behavior have also improved being on his new medication. Sometimes it scares me, because his problem solving skills are getting better, then on the other hand, he still doesn't understand the consequences of his choices.  I can only hope that comes in time.  

We are disappointed that he did not get to keep attending the regular day camp we planned for summer.  Not because of what he did, but because they would not offer him a "shadow" of sorts to keep him from wondering off and engaging him.  We now have him in an adaptive program where he gets a shadow with him and gets to play with children his own age.  So now, if he gets over stimulated because of the noise, she can take him to play in a quiet room to decompress some.  I love the program, it is just very expensive and will probably put us further into debt.  I do have to say, I would rather be in debt, than deprive him of the experience of being with others his own age and have friends.  

This boy LOVES Ranch Dressing!!

FIRST EVER..COMBINED INFORMATION PAPER ON SYNGAP1

I never dreamed that today would come. For the first time in my life I had a dream and it came into reality.  I never thought I had it in me to see anything this "BIG" through because the fear of failure.  Today, I proved to myself that if I just keep going and continue to try and never give up, that good things will start to happen.  Just yesterday I was saying how I wanted to quit and run away. But I chose to stay and continue on through all the feelings of frustration.

My Baby Boy before he started walking...

I thought about my son when he was learning to walk. Pushing a walker and being forced to take every step, because if he didn't he would have never learned to walk.  I thought of how hard that must have been.  How hard it was for him to put one foot in front of the other. Having no motor control and working hand over hand with him to "feel" his legs move.  He never gave up and in the end and he walked!  That meant I can never give up.  I have to keep going no matter how hard things get. No matter how many tears I cry, no matter how mad I get, I just can't stop.  It's my family, it's my children and my SYNGAP family that keep me going.

To think that an email I sent 3 years ago to a researcher I thought would never be heard, was heard.  It started a domino effect.  To think if I never sent that email where would we be now?  I know for sure that I would never be where I am now if I let fear prevent me from reaching out to find help and to find someone that would listen. 

Today was a great day for SYNGAP awareness.  Dr. Jacques Michaud and Dr. Gavin Rumbaugh combined efforts and created a collective summary on SYNGAP1 mutations.  NORD (National Organization for Rare Disease) has published our paper in their database.  This is the first time SYNGAP1 has been published as a collective summary.  This is just the beginning for us as a foundation.  This puts SYNGAP in the hands of people trying to find answers and hope. 

I have to be honest, when I saw it pop on the website, I cried like a baby.  I felt an overwhelming weight off my shoulders.  It was a feeling of relief knowing that when people go searching they have a chance at finding an answer to what they are looking for.  It's a hope for them to know that they're people out there trying to help.  That makes me feel good to know that someone will find help.  I have learned that if "it" wasn't there for you, then be "it" for someone else.  I hope that I can do that for those who need "it".  Since this is just the beginning, I am so excited to see what more we can do together.  The future is bright and I believe we can be the light for others who are searching to get out of the dark. 

Check out our paper and share!  http://rarediseases.org/rare-diseases/syngap1-related-nsid/

And We're Off

It has been a crazy two months.  The foundation has taken off and we are working on development, awareness and a patient registry program.  We have also started developing our website www.bridgesyngap.org.  The response has been wonderful.  On top of the foundations progress, Beckett has been making some of his own. 

We have since raised Beckett's seizure medication (Lamictal) and when he is not sick, progress is quite faster than expected.  His words are becoming more and his articulation has been where you can make out what his needs are.  It helps that he points to what he wants.  We are still having our moments of the frustrating melt downs and the constant running around like a motor won't turn off.  But it seems to cycle every couple of weeks and when we up his dose of medicine he levels out and acts himself.  Since Beckett was a baby he has been sick about every 3 - 5 weeks and on antibiotics and it seems like all the time. We have had his adenoids and tonsils removed, but his frequency of strep infections has been countless.  We are adding another specialist to our list in April.  We are taking him to see an immunologist to see why he is sick all the time and why he is so prone to strep infections.  My concern is that the frequency of antibiotics he takes are beginning to show their ineffectiveness of fighting strep and looks to be antibiotic resistant. 

We wanted to share with you a video of Beckett and his twin sister riding their first carnival ride together for the very first time.  I was so excited that they were able to share a moment together, with no adaptations, no restrictions, no worry and the excitement of being a 6 year old kid.  I was so proud of both of them hanging on for dear life as they spun around.  Well, He let go a couple of times which scared the poo out of me, but it ended up being a great day for everyone:)

Just Me

Have you ever just wondered how you were going to live through the day, hour, minute or even second?  I am sure that we at some point in time have all been there. When raising a child with special needs there is never a true time of rest and relaxation. Many people don't know that because they haven't experienced it. I get frustrated sometimes that people have known you for years still just don't get it. On the other hand I am still very thankful for the ones that do. The hardest part for me is lowering my expectations of what people should be doing to help.  Sometimes I don't have family that is available or they choose not to help as much as I expect them too.  I am totally exhausted and need a break. 
My mind continuously races and I think about the future and if it will ever get better.  I know that I have not given up on trying to make things better, but the fact that I am mentally and emotionally drained and it doesn't seem to go away.  I am probably going to be cynical when I say this..but I really get sick of people that tell me "everything happens for a reason" or "God has a plan, you just don't know it yet".  Ya know?  I haven't lost my faith or believe in what God has planned for me, I am just so very tired. That just makes me want to slap the next person who tells me I am going through what I am going through because I did something wrong in my life and this is just Gods way of "getting my attention". Maybe?  I just choose to believe that right now I am suppose to just live day by day.

I try not to think too hard about tomorrow because we aren't promised tomorrow.  You will also have to excuse my sarcasm.  I wouldn't actually slap someone, but as my husband has jokingly told me in the past, "I just slapped you in the face with an imaginary fish".  All joking aside, it is scary and I'm left wondering when  Chris or I are gone, who will take care of my Bean? These things run through my mind daily.  I am told it's normal, which I am sure it is, I just don't let it paralyze me.  I have accepted the fact that for the rest of my life I will have to take care of a person who will not be able to take care of himself.  I still hope for a treatment or a cure, but I am trying to be realistic about it all.  That is a hard pill to swallow. 
I get frustrated when I try and talk to people who believe that he will "get better and grow out of it".  Yes, I do still hope for that, but in reality it isn't going to happen unless a miracle from God heals my little boy.  Which I guess He could, but I don't bank on it.  I wonder sometimes what I would actually do if he was healed?  Would I still be an advocate? Would I still be spreading awareness to help others?  I don't know?  Most likely, but that is part of me protecting myself from higher expectations and being disappointed later.  Sometimes I seem to get frustrated with how things are not moving as fast as I want I find myself getting mad at my own child's situation for being who he is.  It is hard dealing with the meltdowns, no breaks, no vacations, the financial stress and no help on a regular basis.  I do tell myself that it could be worse and I am sure it can be. It doesn't mean I don't have an occasional pity party. 
I have to keep strong, but sometimes I really need someone to be strong for me and my family.  These past few months have been trying on my patents and nerves.  I want my little boy not to have to suffer the confusion that goes on in his brain due to seizures.  His behavior has been off the chain lately and after many visits to the neurologist we are still waiting for a more conclusive solution to his emotional meltdowns and obsessive behavior.  On the bright side, Beckett has had more verbal progress in his speech.  He is trying to say more words and simple 3 words sentences.  He knows his manners and says "hank you" and "peeese" when something is given to him or when asking for something.  I hope the new EEG results come soon and that we can find a medicine that will work better to control his seizures and behavior outbursts.

Beckett's 3rd EEG of 2014

Life Orchestrated

Life amazes me sometimes.  This is so true, that when you think your at the lowest point and there is no getting out, things just seem to go up and fall into place.  My faith makes me believe that life is an orchestra that just plays continuously until God is finished with you. I am hoping that I'm not done being used yet...I have just started..:)  Over the last few weeks I have watched my life take turns that I never thought would happen.  People, places and things have all been set.  I do believe without my faith, diligence, and tenacity that things will not happen as they should. Over the last few weeks I have been given the opportunity to share Beckett's story.  Global Genes and CNN I-Reports have both published his story on the Internet.
http://ireport.cnn.com/docs/DOC-1144791

http://globalgenes.org/mom-spreads-awareness-about-rare-syngap-1-gene-disorder-after-sons-diagnosis/

We have submitted his story to the United States House of Representatives, Energy and Commerce Committee to help pass legislation that will help the rare disease and rare chromosomal disorder community.  I have been asked to share Beckett's story to be published in the official Tribute To Champions 2014 Gala program with Global Genes Project.  The most exciting part of these past few weeks, besides everything else has been the published; is the new SYNGAP research that was done by Dr. Gavin Rumbaugh and his team of scientists at Scripps Labs.

http://www.cell.com/neuron/abstract/S0896-6273(14)00401-2

Our group of SYNGAP parents are also anticipating a new study to be released mid-summer by Dr. Jacques Michaud and Dr. Michael Parker about SYNGAP and epilepsy.

An exciting summer and still more to come.  Our small group of parents are also in the beginning stages of forming a non-profit foundation that will support research, awareness and small medical grants for families and caregivers of SYNGAP patients.  So stay tuned for new and exciting stuff!

************************



 

 

Beckett has just taken off developmentally.  In the last three weeks or so his language has increased and he his trying to repeat every one's words, I mean every word.  That's includes when he heard the word "ass" and repeated it exactly as he heard it.  And this time, it wasn't me saying it.  I do have to admit it was pretty funny stuff.  We had to get serious really fast and tell him "No, no, no!"  So now he shakes his finger at you and says that instead.  He is also asking for help, going to the potty by himself, asking for snacks when he is hungry by pointing.  For words he doesn't know yet he is coming to me taking my hand and takes me to what he wants or needs.

I was amazed the other night as we were putting the twins to bed and he was all tucked in.  I was looking for his chewy tube and couldn't find it.  I was stunned to see that he got out of bed, turned on the light, came back to the bed and found his chewy tube in the sheets.  He then put the chewy tube in his mouth, went back to turn out the light and crawled in bed.  I sat there with my mouth open in awe and I had to pick my jaw up off the floor when I left the bedroom. It came to me that this boy is problem solving...LIKE FOR REAL!!! 
I don't know if the combination of the medications are helping or if it is just him "growing up" a bit.  I might think it is a little of both.  I have always wondered if the Omega-3's he has been on since he was two years old has helped his brain development. The seizures being controlled has helped his cognition, while the Zoloft has decreased his sensory anxiety along with a significant decrease in his OCD tendencies.  I am very happy with his progress and I am hoping it continues as he gets older. I can't help to think that maybe we have stumbled on to something with the Omega 3's, but maybe time will tell.  Maybe I should mark my words and hypothesize that maybe the Omega 3's are protecting the cells in his brain from damage that the seizures cause.  It's a shot in the dark..but that's usually where science starts, in an "educated guess".

One of our many visits at Texas Children's Hospital
He loves Mini Moo!

Beckett's Kindergarten Year in Review - He's Happy

Just wanted to share a short video of Beckett and his sister Pyper's Kindergarten year.  This is Beckett's favorite song by Pharrell Williams - Happy

Hope you enjoy!

A Different Perspective

Beckett and Daddy decorating Easter Eggs
Easter 2014

A new special mom friend shared this with me a couple of nights ago. A poem written by Emily Kingsley.  This mom happened to see it while her son was in NICU.  You may never experience the life of raising a special needs child. I am not a victim, I am not helpless. God has given me a purpose and a greater love than I have ever thought I could experience. A selfless love. A life of gratitude and appreciation. Not one to be bitter, envious, or selfish. I will admit that this is the hardest thing I ever have had to do. The strength I have is only through my faith in Christ. If I influence you in a way that is encouraging and one that builds, then I have done my job. I am no better than anyone else in this world. I do what I do because its to tell you that you could if you needed to too. If I died today and people spoke of my life, I would want you all to know that I would hope that those things above you would remember me by.
________________________________________________________________________________
Welcome to Holland
I am often asked to describe the experience of raising a child with a disability – to try to help people who have not shared that unique experience to understand it, to imagine how it would feel. It's like this…
When you're going to have a baby, it's like planning a fabulous vacation trip – to Italy. You buy a bunch of guidebooks and make your wonderful plans. The Coliseum, the Michelangelo David, the gondolas in Venice. You may learn some handy phrases in Italian. It's all very exciting.
After months of eager anticipation, the day finally arrives. You pack your bags and off you go. Several hours later, the plane lands. The stewardess comes in and says, "Welcome to Holland."
"Holland?!" you say. "What do you mean, Holland?" I signed up for Italy! I'm supposed to be in Italy. All my life I've dreamed of going to Italy.
But there's been a change in the flight plan. They've landed in Holland and there you must stay.
The important thing is that they haven't taken you to some horrible, disgusting, filthy place, full of pestilence, famine and disease. It's just a different place.
So you must go out and buy a new guidebook. And you must learn a whole new language. And you will meet a whole new group of people you would never have met.
It's just a different place. It's slower paced than Italy, less flashy than Italy. But after you've been there for a while and you catch your breath, you look around, and you begin to notice that Holland has windmills, Holland has tulips, Holland even has Rembrandts.
But everyone you know is busy coming and going from Italy, and they're all bragging about what a wonderful time they had there. And for the rest of your life you will say, "Yes, that's where I was supposed to go. That's what I had planned."
The pain of that will never, ever, go away, because the loss of that dream is a very significant loss.
But if you spend your life mourning the fact that you didn't get to Italy, you may never be free to enjoy the very special, the very lovely things about Holland.

Written by Emily Perl Kingsley

 

Tired...

This is the part of the year is where it really gets hard to get up in the morning.  The same routine for approximately 187 days. Starting with getting up, organizing backpacks, fixing lunches, gathering clothes for school, making breakfast, getting dressed, doing hair, make-up, pouring a cup of coffee to go, grabbing the purse & backpacks then throwing kids in the backseat and go! Whew!  That's a mouth full!  Granted, I do understand that it is probably half the population of working women with children that carry out the same routine, but to add to that the harder days are when I have only had about 4 hours of sleep. This is due to Beckett getting up during the night and trying to get him back to sleep, if he ever does. It's even harder to get up at 5:30AM and do all of the above plus tack on entertaining/teaching a bunch of squirrely 6th graders science. But I have to laugh at myself when I have to top off the day like it started only to come up with an explanation to why they are going to need it in the "real world".  Makes me want to stick pencil in my eye!  LOL!  I am happy to say I am glad I only have 42 days left of school.  It's been a rough year this year.  I sure hope next year is much better and less tiring.

 

I am waiting to find out if Mr. B will be able to attend an ABA program here close to us.  If he does happen to get in we will have to find a way to get him there in the morning since I am working.  I am hoping that an online teaching job comes my way so that things will be a little easier to get him there.  We will be going back at the end of April to find out if his seizure medicine is working like it should.  I am thinking that it possibly is going to have to be changed because of his sleep disturbances and irritability increasing during transition times.  Another item on the list that I am going to have him checked for is a condition called PANDAS.  It is an autoimmune disorder that affects the brain, heart and joints when the body is exposed to the Strep infection antibodies.  We have noticed over the past few months that Beckett literally turns into a different child when he has a Strep infection.  So that is on my list of thing s to talk about when we return to the neurologist. 
I am hoping for some answers and a solution to some of his sleep problems.  Sleep is a good thing...I wish I could have more of it!

Past Memories - Beckett @ 7 months old

I realize that this is a long video, but we wanted to capture Beckett's behavior, facial expressions, motor movements and over all reaction to certain stimuli (the vacuum).  Please ignore the last couple minutes, my husband seemed to get creative and video me vacuuming the curtains...SMH!  LOL!  At this point in time Beckett could not sit up, crawl, had very uncoordinated movements, was very sensitive to sounds. As you can see in the video he suffered many months with acid reflux.  I knew at 4 months that something was wrong when he could not hold his head up, grasp toys, or sit up on his own.  He screamed during bath time.  We could bot figure out if it was the water temperature, being naked, or the feeling of the water itself.   He was a very happy baby for the most part.  As you can see his twin sister was functioning at normal age and hitting all her milestones.  I believe that Beckett being with his twin helped model behavior and help his imitation of play.  About 6 weeks after this video was made we had put him in physical therapy.

The video below is the first year Beckett was in the Early Childhood program in our public schools.  This is one of the moments I treasured and knew that he had an idea how to comprehend some things.  I was so excited.  He was 3 1/2 in this video.



New Year - New Goals

It's been two weeks since Beckett's epilepsy diagnosis.  He seems to be doing well on his medication.  We started with 2.5ml of the Zonisamide liquid and we upped his dose to 5ml last night.  He looks to be more aware of his surroundings and not so confused.  He has been making more sounds and communicating much better.  He actually sits and watches cartoons much longer than he ever has.  I have always thought that the flashing, flickering lights from the TV caused him to be distracted and triggered some of his epileptic disturbances.  It's like a new world has been opened up for him. He seems more aware and his receptive speech has increased substantially.  The unfortunate thing is I think this has triggered his terrible 3's again.  His "awareness" has made him a little more independent, resulting in the attitude of I want what I want...NOW!"  For example, every time we get in the car and start to go somewhere, if it's not where he wants to go he throws a wall-eyed fit!  I'm not really sure how to pacify him at this point, but like everything else; trail and error.  One thing I have noticed with him on the medicine, is he loves to sing.  He can hum a tune almost exactly at the same pitch as the song.  He knows what comes next in the song.  I wish he could talk.  Sometimes I think he is not as slow cognitively as once thought.  He just has no way to communicates what he thinks or wants.  He is making slow progress.  I try not to worry about the future, but it is always in the back of my head how he will be when he gets to be in his teens and adulthood.

Playing at the Park on the BIG slide!

My goals this year are to try and find a way to get him the therapy he needs, start a foundation, and find a job that is more flexible and to get my thoughts and worries under control.  I never imagined how hard this life can be.  A lot of my frustration and worries come from the feeling of not getting the support we sometimes need from people.  This can be a very lonely journey.  Most people just go about their daily lives and don't give a second thought about how they can help.  Sometimes by help, I mean just watching the kids for a night a month so that my husband and I can spend sometime together.  People don't know how it really is unless they live it.  Sad part is, most don't want to know, so they just avoid it and exclude themselves from the equation all together.  So I try and let it go and continue to chug on.  That's all I can do, sometimes that's all there is to do.  I do pray God's blessing on my family.  I know he will come through as always, even though I have to admit I get angry at times because He doesn't move as fast as I would like.  But all in time, right?  I am thankful for the strength He gives, because some days I really don't know how I get through them. 

Hiking along Cypress Creek

EEG Results are in...

Beckett was just diagnosed yesterday with atypical absent seizures (borderline epileptic). Will be officially diagnosed when he has 2 full blown seizures. Technically he has an abnormal EEG. The doctor has said even though he has not had any real seizures yet, he is at a high risk for having them. He has 2 types of epileptic activity going on in his brain. He has what they call epileptic disturbances which are a pre-episode of a full blown seizure, they just don't reach full capacity of a seizure. These disturbances are what causes an interruption in his learning and can cause confusion and meltdowns. We are treating those with a new liquid sulfur based drug that is used for migraines.  I am hoping that the medication will help elevate some of the absent type seizures he is having and hoping that it will help him to be able to learn and improve his memory.  It just seems there is a never ending medical string of diagnoses for my baby boy. I am hoping that one day he gets relief from the endless confusion he experiences.   

Back to the Drawing Board...Again, But This Time... Expecting Change!!

Well....back to the drawing board.  Seems like Beckett didn't do so well on his Intuniv for ADHD.  I am thinking that he's not ADHD after all.  He became violent and his personality changed as we continued his dose over a weeks period.  He became a wild animal.  Biting, scratching, kicking, and the continuous screaming for hours.  For an entire week we had him on the Intuniv taking his dose in the evening and caused him to wake up during the night several times also.  I don't remember sleep deprivation that bad since the twins were infants. I had to take a 1/2 a day off work just to get some rest that week. We still have him on the Vayarin, which seems to be doing well.  We have also upped his dose of time released melatonin to 2.5 mg before bed. This has been a life saver for us because now he sleeps through the night.  He sleeps anywhere from  9 -10 hours at night.

Of course, once we started to get him regulated off the Intuniv, he ends up getting strep throat, AGAIN!  My poor boy has had strep throat about five times since he had his tonsils out a little over a year ago.  He actually told me for the very first time his tummy hurt, saying he had to "poo-poo", then throwing up all over the bathroom. That boy was sick.  I was shocked that he communicated to me he didn't feel well.  I was also very happy that he took the initiative to do so.  I am thinking that children like him also have a lowered immune system that is affected by their chromosome mutation.  He has been so sick as a child and he seems to be allergic to everything, especially antibiotics. They put Beckett on one of the strongest antibiotics they make this time.  I am hoping it works and knocks out the strep. Now that he has been on antibiotics for about 8 days, he has gone back to that sweet, loving boy I know when he is well.  The only side note to that, is he tends to be stuck in his terrible 3's.  He still continuously screams when he doesn't get what he wants, it's just easier to distract him when he is feeling better.

Beckett Playing at the Park

In the next few weeks we will be having a 20 hour EEG to determine if he is having seizures.  I am very anxious for this, because I can't help to think that this might be causing some of his screaming fits and high anxiety.  Sometimes he tends to zone out and just stare, then other times he just loses it and screams when he is told no, and once he gets started it is hard to bring him down from it. 
I pray for more answers.

In the mean time, I have been trying to gather information for Dr. Michaud and putting together a type of Parent Driven Study to bring families and doctors together to help with furthering Dr. Michaud's work.  I am still praying that there will be help for these kids and that things will begin to fall in place to create some type of organization to help families like mine and also help scientists fund their research on SYNGAP. 

If you are a family of a child or an adult diagnosed with SYNGAP, please do not hesitate to contact me.   

Breaking Out of the Bad into the Good!!

Well...you know I had to incorporate something in the title of one of my favorite shows on TV, Breaking Bad..LOL!  Yes, the finale is tonight!!  It is a very thought provoking show that has made me think about how people can take two different paths on how to deal with "Bad" things that happen in life.  Of course, this series took it to the extremes and showed the desperation and obsession one man had to live his life like he wanted and also try and justify it by using the excuse of taking care of his family.  Funny thing is, I think we have all thought about the "what if's?" and then just continued on with the life we have been dealt.  I guess this is where our belief's and values come in. I whole heartedly believe that God puts us in situations either to teach us something or to prepare us for something we will have to deal with in the future.  But He is where we get our strength.

This whole experience that my family and I are in with taking care of a special needs child has allowed us to meet people we otherwise would have never met, showed us that sometimes our plans aren't as great as what God has for us, and that we can live with the trails put in front of us and come out stronger that we ever thought.  People say to me all the time, how do you do it?  I think to myself and laugh that, "I just do!"  You could too if it was put in front of you, you are forced too. Most of us think we couldn't because of the things we would so selfishly have to give up.  But you just do it because you love your child.  What else would I do?  Lock him in a closet somewhere and throw him some food and water every now and again?  He is my son and is a person that God created and has given him to us as a gift.  We are charged with taking care of him. 

Over the last 9 months since Beckett has been diagnosed with SYNGAP1 I have come to know many people that are going to be life long friends and am excited that we can be a support for each other.  We together are working on a way to raise awareness and hoping to begin a foundation that will raise money for research and to help families like ours with medical financial needs.  Of course, we are looking for a civil attorney that can donate their time to help us out with that..so if you happen know anyone..send them my way! ;)  

Since my last update on Beckett, he has begun to say more words.  This morning he called for his daddy to come get him and has said the phrase "Help Me!".  We have him on a new medication called Intuniv that helps him with his impulsive behavior and acts as a mood stabilizer. We have had to adjust it some as at first it made him sleep 16 hours a day. He takes it one time a day. I think we now have it set to where he takes it at night before he goes to bed and helps him not to be so sleepy.
Over all, Beckett is still making slow progress, but it's progress.  He still has his daily meltdowns afterschool, but we are working on those and my "art of distraction" is getting better.  We still take everyday as just that, day by day.

And you know I couldn't just end my post with that.  I have to share how proud I am of my oldest son for graduating from the United States Marine Corp.  He has made me so proud too! 

I do, because you just do...

..yes..life is not always greener on the other side.  It's hard to remember that when you are feeling sorry for yourself and wishing it was different, how things could really be.  People ask me all the time, "how do you do it?"..you just do because you have to..you could to if you had to...

Please watch...I have to remind myself everyday not to wish for something different..because it could be the kind of different that you would never think.

https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=10200907170114838&set=vb.351443748204703&type=2&theater

 

Summer Blues

I guess I am going through the up & down emotions of having my oldest son in the United States Marine Corp Boot Camp right now.  He is in his 5th week and has started the 2nd Phase of training.  I worry about him getting hurt or getting sick.  I didn't think it would be this hard to let go as a mom.  His siblings are also missing him.  I can't remember the last time I actually watched the mailbox for letters.  Usually it's just the bills! LOL!  The twins seem to miss him too.  Pyper asks every now and then where he is and Beckett goes to his recliner every night to give him a kiss good night.  That's where Taylor usually was when he wasn't at work or at a friends house.  Anyway, I can't wait till September when he graduates and is officially a United States Marine!  Ooh Raa!!!

Since the beginning of summer we have had the twins in summer camp at our rec center. Beckett really seems to enjoy it.  He sure is tired though at the end of the day and has the occasional melt downs in the evening.  We ended up having to take him off his ADHD medication again, because of the irritability and anxiety it causes him.  It seems to cause his meltdowns to be worse as he comes down of the medication. 

I am happy to say that I have met another mom in my area with a son Beckett's age that has SYNGAP.  He is a little older than Beckett and looks a though he is hitting the same milestones at about the same time as Beckett did.  My new friend has told me about absence seizures that her son has.  I wasn't quite sure what they were until she explained them to me.  I have recently been paying closer attention to Beckett's behavior and have noticed that his inattention at times could be these types of seizures. I always thought his zoned out inattention could be chalked up to being his ADHD. She gave me the name of her neurologist and I have since made an appointment with him to check him for these type seizures.  So I am hoping to get clarification through a sleep study I am going to ask him to do. 

 

 

I have been feeling guilty because we don't' have him private therapy because of the cost and times available for me to have to go to work.  I understand much better how moms or dads have to give up their careers to take care of a special needs child.  It is incredibly frustrating!  I am glad that he gets to go to summer camp with his sister and be able to be around "normal" kids his age.  I believe it helps him understand the social expectations a bit better. I am also getting excited about him starting a full day PPCD and seeing where that will lead us this year.  Beckett is still on the waiting list for a day program for ABA, but we are still trying to workout getting to and from the program while I work.  I have faith the God will work out something if it His plan.  Hopefully the summer blues will subside soon.  I am trying to gear up for another year of teaching.  This will be year number 19 and counting!  Let's hope I can get to retirement..LOL! :) 

It's a God Thing!

It's amazing how when you think your entire world will fall in on you, something happens to catch you right before you hit the ground. This last week has been up and down.  As I had shared last week I was excited that Beckett was able to go to summer camp. Not even 24 hours after posting in my blog my excitement I get that phone call I was hoping I wouldn't get.  They weren't sure they would be able to let him stay.  He was having accidents in his pants and the little girl who was shadowing him wasn't really prepared to change dirty underwear.  I cried all day and night just praying that God would allow something to work out so Chris and I could get a break.  We had gone in to talk to the director and she said to us she really wanted this to work. She told us they were going give it until Friday to decide whether or not he would be able to come back the next week. I figured that Beckett was nervous and had high anxiety that was literally "scaring the poop" out of him.  When we returned on Thursday the director had said she was able to switch the schedule around to allow one of her counselors who was a  "mom" take care of him.  I was so relieved that she did that for Beckett. So far, he has been back this week, still having a couple of accidents but we now have someone who isn't worried about cleaning up a mess.  Come to find out Ms. Dee has eight children of her own.  She said it doesn't bother her at all and she was glad to be able to help.  I was so ecstatic when I picked him up he didn't have one accident today!! I hope the rest of the week at camp goes the way today did.

Besides the good news of Beckett not having an accident today.  The best was yet to come. I got a call from my geneticist this afternoon. He shared with me that he had gotten an email from a researcher at Texas Children's Hospital asking him if he had any families with SYNGAP1. He said to me; "Monica, I had gotten your email and two days later I received an email out of the blue from a researcher here at Texas Children's wanting to know if I had any patients with SYNGAP1.  I was scratching my head and thinking to myself, that's really odd and the two emails were totally unrelated?"  He began to explain to me that they are about to begin a study on SYNGAP1 here in Houston at Texas Children's. They are looking for families wanting to participate that have children diagnosed with SYNGAP1. He ask me if I would have a problem with him giving me Beckett's information. Of course my response was ABSOLUTLEY NOT!! This is great news!!! I am so excited the this has gotten more attention in the scientific world!!! I  am so excited that they want to use Beckett in their study!!! WHOOP!  Before I ended my conversation with Dr. Scott he mentioned again how much of a coincidence it was to get two emails in less than two days totally unrelated about the same thing.  I told him that that's not a coincidence...that's a God thing!! He giggled over the phone and said, "you are probably right, I do believe that God allows things to happen like this."  I told him, "This was an answered prayer!"  He told me, "Yep..I believe in those too!" 

Time for Summer!

We started the summer this last weekend visiting Galveston Island State Park & Beach.  You could say that this was Beckett's first "real" beach trip.  The last time we had brought the twins, they were only 16 months old.  I don't really count that one since they really don't remember it.  He loved the ocean.  He walked right into the water and into the waves.  He would have floated away if his daddy wasn't right there with him.  He was so excited!  I don't think I have ever heard him laugh so hard every time a wave hit him.  He laughed constantly for almost two hours strait.  We had some of the most fun that day and more was on it's way!

Beckett's First "Real" Beach Trip 2013

This week Beckett has begun his first ever summer camp.  I am excited and worried at the same time.  This camp is not geared for special needs children. Mrs. Darlene the director of the camp has made it possible for my son to be able to participate with the kids his age.  I am happy to know that she has taken an interest in making my son apart of her program.  She has made accommodation's for him and to allow him to be with his twin sister for 6 weeks out of the summer. A young teenage student has been appointed a help the lead counselor with Beckett and to follow him in every activity planned, even in swimming.  Of course, my biggest fear is him swimming...he can't!  He has no concept of danger or fear.  I also worry about him wandering off unnoticed.  I know that they are aware of all his habits and won't let that happen.

So today is his second day.  I haven't had a phone call yet to come get him, so I am assuming he is fitting in just fine.  I am so thankful that the FAC director has seen a need to include the children in her program with special needs.  I wish more childcare facilities did a better job of mainstreaming special needs kids with others.  I believe it is not only good for the special needs child, but the child who has no disabilities to serve others who need it.  I am sure his experience this summer will help him continue to progress and develop his language and other skills and also maybe expose others to differences they are not use to. 


 

Spend $50, Get Free Shipping on Select at Target.com

New FB Group for SYNGAP

Anyone who is a parent or caregiver of someone who has a variance in the SYNGAP gene is welcome.  Please join us to connect with other families who are dealing with similar situations.

https://www.facebook.com/groups/SYNGAP1CONNECT/

Thanks!




 

NEW FACEBOOK PAGE: Parents and Families of People with SYNGAP1

I have created a new Facebook Page to connect and educate families around the world with SYNGAP1.

This disorder is also known as MRD5, RASA1, RASA5, SYNGAP.

https://www.facebook.com/Syngap1?ref=hl

You are not alone!!!

 

Threshold Home Collection Exclusively at Target + Spend $50, Get Free Shipping on Select

I AM ON A MISSION!!!

Please pass this on to any families that you may know that would benefit from this information. I have some great news!! I spoke with Dr. Michaud last night about my son's Syndrome SYNGAP1. He has ask me to help him find families of children who have been identified. He is working on defining the condition to continue his research. He is the doctor who created the test for SYNGAP1. This syndrome has children who have characteristics of developmental delays, severe language delay and many other symptoms that are mistaken for other things. Autism Spectrum Disorder symptoms and possible seizures can be seen in some of these children, ...but not all. Mostly this syndrome causes Intellectual Disability. He has ask me to invite ...families who have this diagnosis to contact him to help him define conditions caused by SYNGAP1. He has told me that once they have an official definition has been made, research can continue to the next step of starting more ...
studies in humans, since they have mouse model data. Please share this with parents you may know who have autism or unexplained symptoms to push their doctors to get genetic testing. This is huge, because most people settle for the autism diagnosis and stop there and don't push for testing. The more people out there who are identified, the more money for research, then research for possible treatments can be done. So..needless to say...I'm on a MISSION now;)

Please watch the video on SYNGAP1
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6NE7FgFBO_o

 Jacques L. Michaud, MD
Head, Division of Medical Genetics, CHU Sainte-Justine
Professor of Pediatrics and Biochemistry, Université de Montréal

CHU Sainte-Justine Research Center
3175 Côte Sainte-Catherine
Montréal (Québec)
Canada H3T 1C5
Phone: 514-345-4931, ext: 6900
Fax: 514-345-4766

jacques.michaud@recherche-ste-justine.qc.ca