And Onto Another Specialist

Of course there is always something new popping up with our Bean.  At least we might have found out some answers to why he is constantly getting sick.  We took him to his first visit with an immunologist to see why he was getting strep all the time.  Well, the $3,500 worth of blood work came back from the eleven tubes of blood taken from our boy. 

Beckett's immunology reports  have peeked the interest of our immunologist. A couple of things that came up in his blood panel that were surprising.  Beckett seems to be on antibiotics all the time. His tests uncovered some interesting data in his blood samples. She found that his antibodies IgG and IgM are very low. His IgA was normal. She found that his numbers were low enough to watch over the next few months. A typical healthy child has anywhere from 700-800 levels, Beckett's are around the 500's when he is healthy. She said that if they go below 300 - 250 that she will recommend him having antibody infusions due to his immune system is not creating a high enough antibody count to fight off infection.  We would monitor his situation every 6 months. Also, his body did not create a high enough antibodies to tetanus. Which his other vaccines seemed to be adequate to fight off those other types of infections. She ask me if he scrapes and cuts took a long time to heal...which I never really thought about it..but it takes forever to have a wound heal fast. Anyway, I thought that this was an interesting find and I am going bring it up to the researchers to see if it could possibly be linked to SYNGAP.  She also recommended us take him to see and infectious disease doctor to rule out the possibility of him having PANDAS.  She said he exhibits all the criteria for PANDAS. That will be our next stop this fall.  We will be taking Beckett in November to have him skin pricked for all the allergies to penicillin.  That day should be fun...

I am glad it is summer time because Beckett is not sick as much during the summer.  Beckett has been progressing much faster than usual being on his Lamictal medication.   His expressive language has gotten much better and his annunciation of words has improved tremendously.  His cognitive abilities and behavior have also improved being on his new medication. Sometimes it scares me, because his problem solving skills are getting better, then on the other hand, he still doesn't understand the consequences of his choices.  I can only hope that comes in time.  

We are disappointed that he did not get to keep attending the regular day camp we planned for summer.  Not because of what he did, but because they would not offer him a "shadow" of sorts to keep him from wondering off and engaging him.  We now have him in an adaptive program where he gets a shadow with him and gets to play with children his own age.  So now, if he gets over stimulated because of the noise, she can take him to play in a quiet room to decompress some.  I love the program, it is just very expensive and will probably put us further into debt.  I do have to say, I would rather be in debt, than deprive him of the experience of being with others his own age and have friends.  

This boy LOVES Ranch Dressing!!

FIRST EVER..COMBINED INFORMATION PAPER ON SYNGAP1

I never dreamed that today would come. For the first time in my life I had a dream and it came into reality.  I never thought I had it in me to see anything this "BIG" through because the fear of failure.  Today, I proved to myself that if I just keep going and continue to try and never give up, that good things will start to happen.  Just yesterday I was saying how I wanted to quit and run away. But I chose to stay and continue on through all the feelings of frustration.

My Baby Boy before he started walking...

I thought about my son when he was learning to walk. Pushing a walker and being forced to take every step, because if he didn't he would have never learned to walk.  I thought of how hard that must have been.  How hard it was for him to put one foot in front of the other. Having no motor control and working hand over hand with him to "feel" his legs move.  He never gave up and in the end and he walked!  That meant I can never give up.  I have to keep going no matter how hard things get. No matter how many tears I cry, no matter how mad I get, I just can't stop.  It's my family, it's my children and my SYNGAP family that keep me going.

To think that an email I sent 3 years ago to a researcher I thought would never be heard, was heard.  It started a domino effect.  To think if I never sent that email where would we be now?  I know for sure that I would never be where I am now if I let fear prevent me from reaching out to find help and to find someone that would listen. 

Today was a great day for SYNGAP awareness.  Dr. Jacques Michaud and Dr. Gavin Rumbaugh combined efforts and created a collective summary on SYNGAP1 mutations.  NORD (National Organization for Rare Disease) has published our paper in their database.  This is the first time SYNGAP1 has been published as a collective summary.  This is just the beginning for us as a foundation.  This puts SYNGAP in the hands of people trying to find answers and hope. 

I have to be honest, when I saw it pop on the website, I cried like a baby.  I felt an overwhelming weight off my shoulders.  It was a feeling of relief knowing that when people go searching they have a chance at finding an answer to what they are looking for.  It's a hope for them to know that they're people out there trying to help.  That makes me feel good to know that someone will find help.  I have learned that if "it" wasn't there for you, then be "it" for someone else.  I hope that I can do that for those who need "it".  Since this is just the beginning, I am so excited to see what more we can do together.  The future is bright and I believe we can be the light for others who are searching to get out of the dark. 

Check out our paper and share!  http://rarediseases.org/rare-diseases/syngap1-related-nsid/

It's a Marathon, Pace Yourself

I am sitting here next to my little Bean thinking that this is a race that never will end. I realize that he has so much to offer and he has taught me so much about life.  But on the other hand, I feel so guilty that he has these problems. He never ask for them, let alone deserved any of it. I get frustrated having to deal with the changes that happen everyday. It is like living a continuous state of post traumatic distress.  He is so cute and adorable when he is just happy and having fun, but when you tell him "no" all hell breaks loose and he turns into a different child.  The art of distraction is the key to curbing these horrendous meltdowns. My problem is trying to find different things to take his mind off what he is upset about.  The emotional and physical toll is taxing on your body, mind and soul. I have to reach deep into myself and find the strength to deal with this life I have been given. The good Lord above is my only strength.  I don't know how anyone does life with out relying on faith. That is my only hope.  Some days are wonderful and some days are absolutely pure hell.  His behavior over the last couple of  months has been erratic and we have started a new seizure medicine called Lamotrigine. It is suppose to help control the seizures and help curb the behavior. We have to watch for a rash that can be lethal and it will take a couple months to get him titrated up on the higher dose to see a full result of its effectiveness.  I have been told by several people that when children like him are growing, their brains are changing and that is when the behaviors are much more prevalent. So living day to day is the key.  Honestly, the older I get, the more fear I have that I will not be strong enough or have the energy to deal with his behavior.  I am already so tired and have no idea what it will be like in 10 years.  I will be 55 then and can't even imagine those days.  I already have very little help from my family or my husbands family.  To be honest, I am wondering when my husband and I will ever be able to spend a night away from home just to be together for any type special occasion? We haven't been over night anywhere in 5 years.  I think the last time we went anywhere overnight alone was when the twins were about 10 months old.  Of course that was before we knew exactly what he had and was not to hard to cope with at the time.  What will probably end up happening is I will have to pay someone tons of money to do it and then worry the entire time that my Bean will not be cared for like he should.  So I just sit and imagine myself going to Hawaii sitting on a beach with my husband and hoping when I get to Heaven that it is much better than Hawaii could ever be.  I do have hope that things will get better as soon as we can figure out the proper medicine for him.  It just seems to take forever.  I haven't given up hope on miracles either. I believe in miracles.  I believe that there is a purpose of why all of this is happening.  I just need a break sometimes.

Beckett and his twin Pyper at the Houston Zoo Lights 2014

My husband told me something the other day that I have thought about ever since.  I was complaining to him my discontent and frustration about how everything just seems to get harder and never seems to end.  He told me "Monica, this is a marathon, pace yourself!"  I was kind of taken back, but I stopped and thought about it. He was right. I need to just keep on keeping on, but deal with things that come up and not worry about the things that are out of my control.  He reminded that worry is just borrowing trouble.  Things will be the way they are going to be.  I will keep running, pacing myself.  I am determined to finish this race.  I might not win any trophies, but I will know I never gave up and if I have to drag myself across the finish line, I will.

1 Corinthians 9:24 Do you not know that those who run in a race all run, but only one receives the prize? Run in such a way that you may win.

Busy Busy Bee!!

Over the last month I have been super busy.  I had the great honor of being able to attend a Patient Advocacy Summit in Huntington Beach, California with a fabulous foundation called Global Genes. They also had me as their guest at the 2014 Tribute To Champions of Hope Gala.  I learned so much and met so many people that have been an inspiration to me. It has renewed my energy and hope to continue to pursue my dream of raising awareness for SYNGAP. http://globalgenes.org/ 

 

 

 

Another parent and myself have become the co-founders of our new non-profit called Bridge The Gap - SYNGAP Education and Research Foundation.  Our mission is to serve, educate and fund research for families coping with the effects of SYNGAP mutations. We have an outstanding group of individuals on our board that are from all walks of life and are driven to help children and families effected by SYNGAP. We are in the beginning stages and are in the process of filing for our 501c status.  I am so excited that doors are opening for us and know in my heart of hearts that when we are 100% established that we will be able to make a difference in lives of those who are looking for answers.  I will always keep hope for my own son to be able to take advantage of any therapies or cures found, but if not it will all be worth it to be able to help those we can.   I look forward to every day to see what new and exciting things are going to happen. 

 

I have to admit it has been very difficult to change my attitude and I sometimes still have my off days just like everyone.  A friend of mine Carrie Ostra, who I have been working with through Global Genes said something to me that has resonated in me since.  Just a quick back story first.  Carrie lost her little girl to a rare genetic disorder called Gaucher's disease at the age of 3.  I met her for the first time in person in California.  I told her how much she inspired me and how she had lived so positively and continued to fight after she had lost her precious baby.  She looked at me and said these very simple words, "What is the alternative?"  I was floored.  She was right.  What is the alternative to living positive?  It's crazy how those four words changed my thinking and still wondering why it took me so long to see it.  Granted, I still have me days that are hard and I still have those little pity parties, but I remember those words of a mom who lost her baby who is driven by living her legacy by helping others.  How fulfilling!  God uses people in mysterious ways and He spoke loud and clear to me through her.  I hope that I can pass that kind of attitude on to others through what our foundation is trying to do.  I pray that the good Lord above blesses it and allows us to bless others though accomplishing our mission.  Please check out my friend Carrie's Little Miss Hannah's Foundation, named after her daughter.  Beckett also carries the gene mutation for Gaucher's Type I.  http://littlemisshannah.org/

 

 

Little Mr. B has been a busy, busy bee also.  He has a runner with the IRUN4 foundation who ran a marathon for him last weekend.  She did so good and we are so proud of her.  Kricia is an awesome friend and runner!  Of course you can see here that he is sporting the shirt she sent him. 

Beckett has been having trouble lately with his behavior and we believe that his medication will need to be changing again.  We went and saw the Pediatric Neurologist this last week. He will be doing research on SYNGAP children at Texas Children's and he is also a board member with our foundation.   He has ordered two MRI's and a new EEG for Beckett.  One type of MRI is new technology and can actually see the connections being made in the brain when "neurons talk".  I am curious to see what the results will be.  I am hoping and praying that Beckett's behavior begins to get better.  He has been scratching, biting and screaming consistently and especially when he doesn't get what he wants.  On the up side he has learned how to navigate and play simple games on the Ipad.  He seems to love it!!
 

Life Orchestrated

Life amazes me sometimes.  This is so true, that when you think your at the lowest point and there is no getting out, things just seem to go up and fall into place.  My faith makes me believe that life is an orchestra that just plays continuously until God is finished with you. I am hoping that I'm not done being used yet...I have just started..:)  Over the last few weeks I have watched my life take turns that I never thought would happen.  People, places and things have all been set.  I do believe without my faith, diligence, and tenacity that things will not happen as they should. Over the last few weeks I have been given the opportunity to share Beckett's story.  Global Genes and CNN I-Reports have both published his story on the Internet.
http://ireport.cnn.com/docs/DOC-1144791

http://globalgenes.org/mom-spreads-awareness-about-rare-syngap-1-gene-disorder-after-sons-diagnosis/

We have submitted his story to the United States House of Representatives, Energy and Commerce Committee to help pass legislation that will help the rare disease and rare chromosomal disorder community.  I have been asked to share Beckett's story to be published in the official Tribute To Champions 2014 Gala program with Global Genes Project.  The most exciting part of these past few weeks, besides everything else has been the published; is the new SYNGAP research that was done by Dr. Gavin Rumbaugh and his team of scientists at Scripps Labs.

http://www.cell.com/neuron/abstract/S0896-6273(14)00401-2

Our group of SYNGAP parents are also anticipating a new study to be released mid-summer by Dr. Jacques Michaud and Dr. Michael Parker about SYNGAP and epilepsy.

An exciting summer and still more to come.  Our small group of parents are also in the beginning stages of forming a non-profit foundation that will support research, awareness and small medical grants for families and caregivers of SYNGAP patients.  So stay tuned for new and exciting stuff!

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Beckett has just taken off developmentally.  In the last three weeks or so his language has increased and he his trying to repeat every one's words, I mean every word.  That's includes when he heard the word "ass" and repeated it exactly as he heard it.  And this time, it wasn't me saying it.  I do have to admit it was pretty funny stuff.  We had to get serious really fast and tell him "No, no, no!"  So now he shakes his finger at you and says that instead.  He is also asking for help, going to the potty by himself, asking for snacks when he is hungry by pointing.  For words he doesn't know yet he is coming to me taking my hand and takes me to what he wants or needs.

I was amazed the other night as we were putting the twins to bed and he was all tucked in.  I was looking for his chewy tube and couldn't find it.  I was stunned to see that he got out of bed, turned on the light, came back to the bed and found his chewy tube in the sheets.  He then put the chewy tube in his mouth, went back to turn out the light and crawled in bed.  I sat there with my mouth open in awe and I had to pick my jaw up off the floor when I left the bedroom. It came to me that this boy is problem solving...LIKE FOR REAL!!! 
I don't know if the combination of the medications are helping or if it is just him "growing up" a bit.  I might think it is a little of both.  I have always wondered if the Omega-3's he has been on since he was two years old has helped his brain development. The seizures being controlled has helped his cognition, while the Zoloft has decreased his sensory anxiety along with a significant decrease in his OCD tendencies.  I am very happy with his progress and I am hoping it continues as he gets older. I can't help to think that maybe we have stumbled on to something with the Omega 3's, but maybe time will tell.  Maybe I should mark my words and hypothesize that maybe the Omega 3's are protecting the cells in his brain from damage that the seizures cause.  It's a shot in the dark..but that's usually where science starts, in an "educated guess".

One of our many visits at Texas Children's Hospital
He loves Mini Moo!

HEAR MY CRY!!!

Over the last few months I have been trying to find my place.  Asking myself questions of ,"Where do I start?  Who will listen?  Who really cares?"  I am learning that more people do care, but there is so much going on who has time to do much about another person's problems.  My steps have been small, but as I look back on two years of shouting to the sky, I feel like I have been heard.  I am so excited to announce that the group www.GlobalGenes.org has published my son's story.  I have been a volunteer advocate leader for them and trying to help raise awareness of rare diseases and rare genetic conditions. This to help inform the public to to pass legislation that will benefit the Rare Disease community and encourage them to contact our United States Congress.  If you would like to read the published story about my son, please follow the link.
http://globalgenes.org/mom-spreads-awareness-about-rare-syngap-1-gene-disorder-after-sons-diagnosis/

Please contact your US Representatives and ask that the pass the following legislation.

If you would like more information on the pieces of legislation being discussed please follow the links below:

House Bill 460:   http://beta.congress.gov/bill/113th-congress/house-bill/460/

House Bill 1591:  http://www.facebook.com/l.php?u=http%3A%2F%2Fbeta.congress.gov%2Fbill%2F113th-congress%2Fhouse-bill%2F1591%3Fq%3D%257B%2522search%2522%253A%255B%2522H.R.%2B1591%2B%2522%255D%257D&h=dAQEaOjeQ

In the meantime, Beckett has finished his Kindergarten year and is looking forward to a relaxing summer.  We are hoping that he begins his ABA school in July and looking forward to seeing his progress.  Since last summer we have seen vast improvements in his verbal communication and his cognitive level has improved. He is saying his siblings names so that you can understand them and is having a better time expressing his needs verbally.  He can following two word commands and understanding directions more so than he ever has.  We believe that since Beckett's seizures have been controlled his learning has increased at a more rapid rate.  I am super excited to see him grow and develop when he begins Spectrum of Hope. 

https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=10202000707371403&l=1997653894636273445

 

Past Memories - Beckett @ 7 months old

I realize that this is a long video, but we wanted to capture Beckett's behavior, facial expressions, motor movements and over all reaction to certain stimuli (the vacuum).  Please ignore the last couple minutes, my husband seemed to get creative and video me vacuuming the curtains...SMH!  LOL!  At this point in time Beckett could not sit up, crawl, had very uncoordinated movements, was very sensitive to sounds. As you can see in the video he suffered many months with acid reflux.  I knew at 4 months that something was wrong when he could not hold his head up, grasp toys, or sit up on his own.  He screamed during bath time.  We could bot figure out if it was the water temperature, being naked, or the feeling of the water itself.   He was a very happy baby for the most part.  As you can see his twin sister was functioning at normal age and hitting all her milestones.  I believe that Beckett being with his twin helped model behavior and help his imitation of play.  About 6 weeks after this video was made we had put him in physical therapy.

The video below is the first year Beckett was in the Early Childhood program in our public schools.  This is one of the moments I treasured and knew that he had an idea how to comprehend some things.  I was so excited.  He was 3 1/2 in this video.



EEG Results are in...

Beckett was just diagnosed yesterday with atypical absent seizures (borderline epileptic). Will be officially diagnosed when he has 2 full blown seizures. Technically he has an abnormal EEG. The doctor has said even though he has not had any real seizures yet, he is at a high risk for having them. He has 2 types of epileptic activity going on in his brain. He has what they call epileptic disturbances which are a pre-episode of a full blown seizure, they just don't reach full capacity of a seizure. These disturbances are what causes an interruption in his learning and can cause confusion and meltdowns. We are treating those with a new liquid sulfur based drug that is used for migraines.  I am hoping that the medication will help elevate some of the absent type seizures he is having and hoping that it will help him to be able to learn and improve his memory.  It just seems there is a never ending medical string of diagnoses for my baby boy. I am hoping that one day he gets relief from the endless confusion he experiences.   

Back to the Drawing Board...Again, But This Time... Expecting Change!!

Well....back to the drawing board.  Seems like Beckett didn't do so well on his Intuniv for ADHD.  I am thinking that he's not ADHD after all.  He became violent and his personality changed as we continued his dose over a weeks period.  He became a wild animal.  Biting, scratching, kicking, and the continuous screaming for hours.  For an entire week we had him on the Intuniv taking his dose in the evening and caused him to wake up during the night several times also.  I don't remember sleep deprivation that bad since the twins were infants. I had to take a 1/2 a day off work just to get some rest that week. We still have him on the Vayarin, which seems to be doing well.  We have also upped his dose of time released melatonin to 2.5 mg before bed. This has been a life saver for us because now he sleeps through the night.  He sleeps anywhere from  9 -10 hours at night.

Of course, once we started to get him regulated off the Intuniv, he ends up getting strep throat, AGAIN!  My poor boy has had strep throat about five times since he had his tonsils out a little over a year ago.  He actually told me for the very first time his tummy hurt, saying he had to "poo-poo", then throwing up all over the bathroom. That boy was sick.  I was shocked that he communicated to me he didn't feel well.  I was also very happy that he took the initiative to do so.  I am thinking that children like him also have a lowered immune system that is affected by their chromosome mutation.  He has been so sick as a child and he seems to be allergic to everything, especially antibiotics. They put Beckett on one of the strongest antibiotics they make this time.  I am hoping it works and knocks out the strep. Now that he has been on antibiotics for about 8 days, he has gone back to that sweet, loving boy I know when he is well.  The only side note to that, is he tends to be stuck in his terrible 3's.  He still continuously screams when he doesn't get what he wants, it's just easier to distract him when he is feeling better.

Beckett Playing at the Park

In the next few weeks we will be having a 20 hour EEG to determine if he is having seizures.  I am very anxious for this, because I can't help to think that this might be causing some of his screaming fits and high anxiety.  Sometimes he tends to zone out and just stare, then other times he just loses it and screams when he is told no, and once he gets started it is hard to bring him down from it. 
I pray for more answers.

In the mean time, I have been trying to gather information for Dr. Michaud and putting together a type of Parent Driven Study to bring families and doctors together to help with furthering Dr. Michaud's work.  I am still praying that there will be help for these kids and that things will begin to fall in place to create some type of organization to help families like mine and also help scientists fund their research on SYNGAP. 

If you are a family of a child or an adult diagnosed with SYNGAP, please do not hesitate to contact me.   

Breaking Out of the Bad into the Good!!

Well...you know I had to incorporate something in the title of one of my favorite shows on TV, Breaking Bad..LOL!  Yes, the finale is tonight!!  It is a very thought provoking show that has made me think about how people can take two different paths on how to deal with "Bad" things that happen in life.  Of course, this series took it to the extremes and showed the desperation and obsession one man had to live his life like he wanted and also try and justify it by using the excuse of taking care of his family.  Funny thing is, I think we have all thought about the "what if's?" and then just continued on with the life we have been dealt.  I guess this is where our belief's and values come in. I whole heartedly believe that God puts us in situations either to teach us something or to prepare us for something we will have to deal with in the future.  But He is where we get our strength.

This whole experience that my family and I are in with taking care of a special needs child has allowed us to meet people we otherwise would have never met, showed us that sometimes our plans aren't as great as what God has for us, and that we can live with the trails put in front of us and come out stronger that we ever thought.  People say to me all the time, how do you do it?  I think to myself and laugh that, "I just do!"  You could too if it was put in front of you, you are forced too. Most of us think we couldn't because of the things we would so selfishly have to give up.  But you just do it because you love your child.  What else would I do?  Lock him in a closet somewhere and throw him some food and water every now and again?  He is my son and is a person that God created and has given him to us as a gift.  We are charged with taking care of him. 

Over the last 9 months since Beckett has been diagnosed with SYNGAP1 I have come to know many people that are going to be life long friends and am excited that we can be a support for each other.  We together are working on a way to raise awareness and hoping to begin a foundation that will raise money for research and to help families like ours with medical financial needs.  Of course, we are looking for a civil attorney that can donate their time to help us out with that..so if you happen know anyone..send them my way! ;)  

Since my last update on Beckett, he has begun to say more words.  This morning he called for his daddy to come get him and has said the phrase "Help Me!".  We have him on a new medication called Intuniv that helps him with his impulsive behavior and acts as a mood stabilizer. We have had to adjust it some as at first it made him sleep 16 hours a day. He takes it one time a day. I think we now have it set to where he takes it at night before he goes to bed and helps him not to be so sleepy.
Over all, Beckett is still making slow progress, but it's progress.  He still has his daily meltdowns afterschool, but we are working on those and my "art of distraction" is getting better.  We still take everyday as just that, day by day.

And you know I couldn't just end my post with that.  I have to share how proud I am of my oldest son for graduating from the United States Marine Corp.  He has made me so proud too! 

Summer Blues

I guess I am going through the up & down emotions of having my oldest son in the United States Marine Corp Boot Camp right now.  He is in his 5th week and has started the 2nd Phase of training.  I worry about him getting hurt or getting sick.  I didn't think it would be this hard to let go as a mom.  His siblings are also missing him.  I can't remember the last time I actually watched the mailbox for letters.  Usually it's just the bills! LOL!  The twins seem to miss him too.  Pyper asks every now and then where he is and Beckett goes to his recliner every night to give him a kiss good night.  That's where Taylor usually was when he wasn't at work or at a friends house.  Anyway, I can't wait till September when he graduates and is officially a United States Marine!  Ooh Raa!!!

Since the beginning of summer we have had the twins in summer camp at our rec center. Beckett really seems to enjoy it.  He sure is tired though at the end of the day and has the occasional melt downs in the evening.  We ended up having to take him off his ADHD medication again, because of the irritability and anxiety it causes him.  It seems to cause his meltdowns to be worse as he comes down of the medication. 

I am happy to say that I have met another mom in my area with a son Beckett's age that has SYNGAP.  He is a little older than Beckett and looks a though he is hitting the same milestones at about the same time as Beckett did.  My new friend has told me about absence seizures that her son has.  I wasn't quite sure what they were until she explained them to me.  I have recently been paying closer attention to Beckett's behavior and have noticed that his inattention at times could be these types of seizures. I always thought his zoned out inattention could be chalked up to being his ADHD. She gave me the name of her neurologist and I have since made an appointment with him to check him for these type seizures.  So I am hoping to get clarification through a sleep study I am going to ask him to do. 

 

 

I have been feeling guilty because we don't' have him private therapy because of the cost and times available for me to have to go to work.  I understand much better how moms or dads have to give up their careers to take care of a special needs child.  It is incredibly frustrating!  I am glad that he gets to go to summer camp with his sister and be able to be around "normal" kids his age.  I believe it helps him understand the social expectations a bit better. I am also getting excited about him starting a full day PPCD and seeing where that will lead us this year.  Beckett is still on the waiting list for a day program for ABA, but we are still trying to workout getting to and from the program while I work.  I have faith the God will work out something if it His plan.  Hopefully the summer blues will subside soon.  I am trying to gear up for another year of teaching.  This will be year number 19 and counting!  Let's hope I can get to retirement..LOL! :)